If I don’t ask by EJ Noyes, narrated by Abby Craden

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If I don’t ask by EJ Noyes

If I don’t ask by EJ Noyes, narrated by Abby Craden

An absolute pleasure to listen to

I read this book at the beginning of May and loved it so much that as soon as the audiobook version was released, I got it. I’m an unashamed fan of the Ask, Tell series and when Ms. Noyes announced that she was writing If I don’t ask, I did a happy dance.


Lieutenant Colonel Rebecca Keane is a successful US army doctor leading a surgical team deployed in Afghanistan. She’s used to repressing her sexuality under the strict Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell policy. But when Captain Sabine Fleischer joins her team, she feels an attraction that is hard to suppress. As Sabine’s direct commanding officer, Rebecca knows she cannot act on her desires but when a mutual attraction grows between them, it gets harder to ignore her feelings. However, under strict Army rules, acting on their attraction means risking not only their hearts but their careers.

This is book 4 of the Ask, Tell series formed by Ask, Tell (book one and Noyes’s excellent debut, 2017), Ask me Again (book 2, 2018), and If the Shoe Fits (book 3, 2019). If you are new to the series, first, what are you waiting to read it? and second, I don’t recommend following the publishing order. If I don’t ask retells the events of Ask, Tell (which was told from Sabine’s point of view) this time from Rebecca’s perspective. The timeline of both books is very similar though If I don’t ask starts a bit earlier. However, I suggest starting with Ask, Tell, following with this book, then Ask me Again and finishing it with If the Shoe Fits. The reason for this is that Ask, Tell has an element of surprise that you don’t want to miss but, at the same time, it creates an enigma around Rebecca Keane that this book reveals. (After writing this review, I noticed that Ms. Noyes suggests the same reading order in her blog post at Bella Media).

We are rarely privy to the same set of events told in two separate books from different points of view. This novel reminded me of the Winter Jacket series by Eliza Lentzski which covers part of the same story in book 0 and book 1. Rebecca Keane – like Hunter in Winter Jacket – is a pleasure to unveil when getting into her headspace. Some reviews of Ask, Tell complained that Rebecca’s actions seemed rushed but now that we can see the depth of her feelings and her personal circumstances, her decisions make complete sense. This book closes the full circle of the story and completes it.

If you have read Ask, Tell, then this novel loses any element of surprise but it doesn’t mean that it’s not heart-wrenching all over again, even if you know what’s coming. Additionally, Rebecca’s point of view, the discovery of her most intimate thoughts, her relationship with her best friend Linda (who unfortunately doesn’t appear in the rest of the series), and a glimpse of her moral compass and work ethics, give a fresh perspective of the same events. In the acknowledgments, Ms. Noyes says that this book felt like a self-indulgent project but let me tell you, it’s not. At the risk of sounding like a hard-core fan of the series (which I am) I’d say that this book is necessary, plus, it’s a pleasure to read/listen and who can complain about that?

Abby Craden narrated the audiobook version which is the perfect choice as she did most of the series (with the exception of book 4, If The Shoe Fits, which is a shame). Ms. Craden’s rendition of Rebecca Keane is delightful and listening to this character’s headspace is pure bliss. Just hearing her calling Sabine “darling” is worth your time with this audiobook. But the show stopper is Ms. Craden’s performance of the “incident” (if you read book one you know what I mean). She conveys such raw emotion and intense angst that will leave you speechless. Absolutely amazing.

Overall, another winner by EJ Noyes and Abby Craden. An absolute pleasure to listen to. 5+ stars.

Length: 11 hours, 11 minutes.

If I don’t ask by EJ NoyesIf I don’t ask by EJ Noyes

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